Coming back to this space after writing the last post was much harder than I anticipated it would be.
And I thought it would be hard.
But every time I came here, and saw the photos of him, I couldn't do it.
There was something too final and too sad about it and I flinched every time. So I said "tomorrow", and then I said it again.
I said it a lot actually.
But in all that time, I was working, spending time working with my hands and not letting my head get too involved and it was something that I needed to do I think.
To bring me back to a place where I understood that the Goodbyes had been said, but that he was never really going to leave us.
So I took some pictures, and made more with my hands and felt a change coming that I think has been in the air for a while.
Because if you have been reading this ridiculous blog for very long, you will have noticed that I am a bit of a wanderer when it comes to content.
I like things that are silly.
I like things that are light. And easy.
But this summer has not been easy. And it has not been light. And it has led me to a place where I am finally seeing this Thing that I Do, this handmade life I am making for myself and my family, in a new way.
A way that, I hope, will create a path to living the life that I want.
Not just the life I am given.
I expect that I will come back to silly. Probably sooner than I would like to think I will.
(Let's be honest, I am still ME after all)
But I am clearing some clutter from this space. From my life too.
(you should see my closet, I am paring down in all nooks and crannies.)
I read something that stuck with me recently.
(I found it while browsing here)
I have taken it to heart. And I am working very hard to make the life that I want. For myself and my family.
If I haven't already lost you, I hope that you consider sticking around and seeing what we get up to.
I Love you, I love how your mind works, how your hands work, but most of all how your heart works. Janamade is amazing, every step you have taken with it. I will continue to follow not only as a proud sister, but as a true fan!!
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